9.30.2004

DO IT!

Apologies for anyone who gets upset by the lack of updates.

Truth is there really isn't much to update.

Since the previous update, I guess it was back at the end of May, not much has changed. I started doing Temp jobs downtown and that's been going well. I just hate the idle times between assignments where I revert back to my useless self.

As per my usual summer activities, I've been doing the usual summer festivities. The endless cycle of going out and coming home but this summer the event of going to work was introduced to the routine. Many more brain cells have been murdered, many a beer has been consumed. I'm one year older, yet I still feel young. In the grand scheme of things 25 is pretty young, considering in the society we dwell in, people live longer. 25 would be a problem if we were in a less industralized nation. Probably a good reason why I should do something with my life. Therein lies the conundrum however. I don't know what to do with my life, don't know, haven't found, can't figure out my purpose. Still in search of my being, my purpuse for being placed where I am. At 25 I still can't tell myself yet alone my parents or others what the hell my plan is. The truth is I don't really have a plan right now. I'm trying but sometimes it just leads me to dead ends. I've told people of a conversation I enjoyed with one of the nurses I used to work with. Her daughter and I graduated from York at the same time, we'd known each other since we were in 6th grade and we were both destined for greatness going to U of I. Turns out though my first semester at U of I her daughter decides to drop out. She was talking to me about how it's hard for kids of our generation to find a purpose because we're given so many opportunities. That we see that we truly can be whatever we want, there are no restrictions holding us back. When I was younger I was dead set on becoming a doctor, a surgeon. Then I worked at the hospital and decided hell no was that for me. Then I decided hey Pre-Law doesn't seem so bad, so I graduated pre-law, now I'm putting it off because I am lazy, I admit that. So now I'm still in deep search for what I am and what I'm going to do.

But hey enough of that bull.

This past weekend was fun, can barely remember the nights, but they were fun it seemed. Don't really remember many of the pictures taken when I look at them, ah yes more drunken pictures. Never seizes to amaze me that no matter how much we may oppose going to one place, with enough alcohol at really cheap prices everyone will have a the time of their lives. I am paying for it however with my illness, probably got it from being around all those kids and the germs they give each other, but hey, by this weekend I should be fine and itching to go out again.

On a side note, I'm starting this new get healthy plan, cutting down (hopefully) temendously on the smoking, working out (including cardio). I've got plans to be able to play sports and not be sore for the two days following said activity.

Later.