Drunk on a Wednesday, who does that??? That's right, Jen, Cathy, Romel, and I! Hey this is how we do boredom up here, we drink away our sorrows. Welcome to the real world she said to me, condesendingly. Went to the Bulls game tonight, with Cathy, yeah they still suck, young team, can't play together right, I feel sorry for Jay Williams and Jalen Rose. And that Iverson man, dude doesn't miss much, small quick little fuck. But yeah, going to MAFA this weekend, see how this goes, I WILL NOT pull a re-run of Junior year, right Fatima? How'd I get conned into driving again? Oh that's right, PJ doesn't know how to say NO!

Yeah, haven't blogged in a while. Last weekend was fun, especially Saturday, sorry Marina, but yeah don't keep shots in your mouth. And who's the chick that has a crush on me? I don't freaking remember. Ian, shhhhhh haha. But yeah, haven't been doing SHIT. Just the usual stuff, job hunting, not getting anything out of it. Bumming around the house, watching TV, sleeping, eating, yeah fun times. Not much else to say really, kinda tired, pretty bored. Lates

Let's Blog

Let's re-cap the last week shall we? Sit back, relax, this one's probably going to be long...

Tuesday, headed down to U of I to do some cultural and of course you know how we do. Got down there around 8 and on the way there Marina and I had our lives pass before our eyes. Going down route 47 at night, scary when you're trying to pass up a semi and then a truck comes out of nowhere and almost crashes with you. I won the game of chicken by the way, he gracefully, and thankfully, moved to the shoulder while I slammed on the brakes and with timely precision drove back behind the truck. Phew! Then got to school and went straight to practice. Saw everyone and Fatima immediately told me to start clicking, I didn't even get to eat my Taco Bell yet! So yeah, I forgot the counts, but caught back on. Showed the culture shock peeps what we had, then of course, it was Tuesday so you know what time it was Wine Night. Ading had to keep my floppy ears cold cuz she had gloves on and I didn't wear a hat cuz you know it might mess up the 'do. Get inside, and ew, getting to the second floor you could just feel the heat hit you when you got to the top of the stairs. Found a couch in the blue room and chilled there for the night. Watched the tall cuz get drunk as well as the frosh, ading included, she puked for kuya she said, yeahhhhhh. Then Joe and I were ready to throw down cuz some dumbass fatty spilled a drink on jen's overly priced Burbery scarf so Joe and I proceeded to yell at the mother fucker, me from my seat on the couch, Joe went down to talk to them. Oh yeah, some fat girl, hehe, puked all over herself and the perfectly good and innocent couch, go Wine Night. Then we headed to Merry Anne's, Monnie looked as if she was glad to see me. Had my first stack in a long time, ate it in under 5 minutes as usual. Then I headed over to apt. 30 to crash, I guess the roomies, Sharon and Juvs were still buzzin hahaha, funny stuff, they made my ear drums bleed when they were yelling at each other about biting off each other and wearing the same shirt. The chilled with Arlenda and Juvs for a while. They did their HW, I marveled at Juvy's pretty dirty rug, hahaha sorry Juvs. Then I crashed for the Night.

Wednesday, woke up around 230, met some people up to play pool, Leah made fun of Jay, he makes her nervous, haha. Then went back to apt. 30 and passed out, I sleep like it's cool now. Drove Arlene and Jay over to the Y for the officer auctions. Too bad they wouldn't re-locate that party to up here, otherwise that shit would have been mine and Marina's all the way. After that went back and got ready for Boltini's and Legend's. Legend's was packed, and my cuz shouldn't talk anymore, just shhhhh joey, shhhhhh. Then played some fuzion frenzy at Jay's and then passed out.

Thursday, woke up with a MAD headache. Woke up to cuz and Marina kidnapping me to go to hooters. Forgot that I was supposed to have lunch at Murphy's with 'Twan, oops. Went to hooters, had some wangs. Then back to apt. 30 to take a nap. Then it was off to cultural practice and Romel arrived. Went to 02, still had a mad headache so I tried to cover up the pain with some drinks, yeah didn't work only enhanced it. Went over to Jay's and passed out on their arm chair, in a fetal position. How does one pass out there being over like 5 foot? It takes grace and elegance my friend. Apparently my ass was also violated, thanks Joe. Woke up and passed out again at apt 30.

Friday, woke up to Jayson's scary ass hovering over me. Apparently he just walked in, I was like ok sure. Got ready and had lunch finally with 'Twan. Had two burgers and a beer, she also had a beer and was "uh oh joey...I'm tingly." Hahaha, headed back over to her place and watched her drag ass as she got ready. Then the graduates and I, Romel, Jayson, and I, went over to Barfly for Happy Hour. Gotta tell you, fun times buzzin hardcore at about 8pm. Then Romel and I had to go to the union to practice and get ready for the performance. We walk in and were like, WHOA! Everyone knew we were hella buzzin, one because we smelled like liqour on our breaths, and two because my pale ass turns red, I was quite crimson apparently. Then we performed and rocked that shit. Made it to the cover of the D.I. My only question is good God, why must I be on the front? My skinny ass needs to work out. Then we headed over to Joe's, took some convincing, actually volunteered him to have us over, hahaha. Got there, and went straight for the X-Box. Fun console. Then everyone got there and I went up to the kitchen to do some, maybe quite an excessive amount of Jaeger shots, yummy stuff, doesn't taste like black licorice now that I think about it. Then Zata, Romel, Fatima, Paul and I looked over down into the living room where the kiddies where, man, that's when it hit me, I'm old, we all felt old, they dont' even know what new wave is! That's when I knew it was over, college is over, I'm "grown up" now. No more time to fuck around and time to get my head in order to figure out what I want to do with this life and who I am. I didn't figure it out there, so I have to figure it out now. Then went to Merry Anne's again had another stack then passed out.

Saturday, woke up around 230, lounged around a bit, then Marina and I left for home. Got stranded by a train, but was a rather un-eventful ride. Got home, took a 'lil nap, then headed out to Transit, Partied with the Loyola kids, Paul, shoulda been there, "bodysuit!" Tried to get drunk cuz everyone else was, yeah no dice, just made me more wired, then headed out to China Town cuz that's how we do it. Came home passed out.

Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, woke up looked for jobs, watched TV, ate, showered, maybe, shaved, maybe, watched more TV, fell back asleep. Only today, Tuesday, I went with my bro back to York for his Frosh orientation, nearly 10 years ago did I do that too. Man things have changed, it's so much bigger now, the kids too. I worry that my bro won't last, he's so small compared to some of those giants that are as big as I am. And I've also come to the conclusion that yeah, I hate teenie boppers.

So comes my conclusion to this long winded entry. I'm old, not in the sense chronologically speaking, that is that I am 23 and that in the big picture I've yet to do really big things nor have I done enough. But in the sense that my childhood is pretty much in the past. Like that Saturn ION commercial where there's road signs reading "Now leaving your Childhood" or "Now leaving High School" that's how it is, I've seen them and have passed them, it's time to do adult things, things that I'm expected to do. To contribute to society, to the world. To do what I really was meant to do, to find myself and to make a difference, somehow, someway. My childhood has had, cliche-ish I know, it's up and downs. These have made me the person who I am. Now it's up to me to decide what I do, where I go. I've come to the conclusion that well, things don't always turn out the way you want them to, that some things just will not happen no matter how much you want it to. Some things are there, right in front of you and if you don't take the chance, it'll disappear. That every decision you make does have a bearing, in some way shape or form, on you life. I felt old at wine night, I felt old at Legend's, I felt old at Joe's, I feel right at home here. So I bid my childhood farewell finally, I've put it off too long, and say hello world, because in a matter of time, I'm yours. I just need to get over this awkward stage, not un-like adolescence.

Hi, how are you?

So I finally got my diploma today, THANK GOD! I was getting worried that something was wrong, like I really didn't pass all my classes, or that I was missing some sort of campus requirement. Maybe it was that way and they just said screw it, get him out of here, he's too old and he's been here, in college too, for way too long. In any case, I have a piece of paper that costs about $30,000. And what do I have to show for it so far? NOTHING!!!

Oh, so I realized that I kinda recapped the weekend on my last entry, but forgot about Friday. I know Romel and Fatima already put it in their things, but hey, I have one too so I'm going to rabmble on about it too now because I really have nothing else to do at this time of night. So friday, Romel, Fatima, Joel, and myself went out to the city. Thinking it wouldn't be a night like a rockstar I was mistaken. Drank way too much and paid for it the next morning. So we started the night out at Romel's cousin's place then headed out to Betty's Blue Star Lounge. There Romel and myself had 3 or 4 gin and tonics, Tanqueray for Romel, Bombay Sapphire for myself, why? because Romel and I are old now, well I'm older, but that's what old men do (Billy Joel - Piano Man ...there's an old man sitting next to me, making love to his tonic and gin). Oh but it didn't end there, cuz decides to start a tab and we proceed to do 2 jaeger bombs, good shit by the way, new shot of the moment. Then we decided to go to glow for one of Romel's friend's free party, yeah I guess everyone who signed up for a free party that night did get one (Twan). There had a beer, because I do that. We watched some raunchy ass chick dance like there were poles up there, but there aren't any on the bar. She wore these hot pants thing, it was kinda gross. So then Joel buys me another gin and tonic (thanks cuz, gotta love people who are employed, they'll shell out cash). Oh and then there was this dude, you could so tell he was a guy cuz it was like 6 foot tall, with blonde hair, oh and you guys think I have thin thighs, dude's thighs were like the size of my arms, now that shit's skinny! Then Romel and I are chillin on the seats and he looks at me and says "maybe we should do a shot, we need to be drunk to be here" (we need to be drunk at many a place lately because yeah it gets boring. So we give Fatima money to get 3 shots of goldschlaugher, she unknowingly contributed to her demise hehehe, sorry Fatima. So she brought the shots back and we were like oh the third one's for you, she's like "BASTARDS!!!" So we take it and Fatima and I are on the verge of vomiting, it was really nasty. So we left glow and went to China town to eat, cuz we do that too. Had some pot stickers, mmmm pot stickers. And then headed home. Got Fatima home at 5am, hopefully her parents weren't awake hehe. But yeah, overall fun night.

To Mata's speed of dark thing, this is my inner dork coming out, I actually gave it thought and I told him what I thought early yesterday. I claim that dark and light are the same, each is the absence of the other, light the abscence of light, and dark, conversely, the absence of light. So since they are present in the absence of each other, they must travel the same speed. However, a new twist, we all learned in physics, think back to high school you non-science people, remember that light has a duality charateristic that is it is both a wavelength and energy. Dark on the other hand being the absence of light has no such dualism, so perhaps light does travel faster than dark. Dark comes when there is no light, or the light leaves and moves to another place. So to conclude this randomness, I propose that light still is the king of the hill, and that dark is slower than light. We're all dummer now, me for writing that garbage, and you for reading it haha, jk.

Ok, that's it for now, no more rambling, SOCOM is calling my name.

So in a matter of time Telnet and .plan will be non-existent for me, so I decided to do one of these things...

These are just my ramblings, because I do that, useless at best, that's what I do.

So it's been a month and a week since I graduated. Not much has happened, and life up here is getting monotonous. I wake up, scrounge around for food, shower (maybe), go online and look for jobs, more food, watch TV (JAG is a good show btw), more food, think about having a cigarette (gotta see if dad's home so I can smoke), eat again (I eat a lot and don't gain weight hehe you hate me dont you?) then night sauntering in and I wait for something to happen, Joel or Romel will call because well yeah Romel's in the same boat as I am, he just works out in addition to our daily routine, then we play pool or have our mandatory alcoholic beverage, I've noticed I can't go for more than 48 hours without having an alcholic beverage, (Alcoholic?) then I come home check who's online maybe talk or play some PS2 (those damn terrorists just won't die freaking Riddah Rouge) then I pass out around 5 just as mom is getting up for work as she enters the room and shakes her head at my "sleeping" corpse. Then it starts again, except on the weekends where it's pretty much wake up eat go out eat sleep and do it again.

Fun isn't it?

So went out again tonight with Cathy and Romel to Chromium. Kinda broke, we weren't feeling it probably because we partied hard last night, right Fatima? So I got home around 2. 2? Yes 2, on a Saturday/Sunday nonetheless. Cathy and I talked about how it's so different when you're home. At school when your'e bored you have actual physical contact with other people to be bored with you, not just the digital connections of AIM or Text or phone conversations, but you can see them. Here it's you, and just you sitting, doing nothing, watching TV eating the endless amounts of Filipino food you missed while you were gone. But now, all the Pancit, Beef Steak, and Kare Kare, become boring, oh how I crave a stack.

It's only now that I'm gone that I realize how I do take things for granted. How maybe I should have relished my time at school more, because yes, the truth is I do miss it, I knew I would. But life goes on and so do I. That's it for now, more later...